Men Don't Need Therapy

“Sometimes, when no one is around to save you, you have to save yourself”.         -Desperate Housewives

I may be dyslexic, never took a test before but based on how I read text and online paperwork, anyone could see it. I’d start my disability application but then every word starts running together. When questions are asked, my mind goes blank, I quickly get intimidated  and log off. I don’t have my partner anymore who would knock it out for me. She would have had it done, printed out and everything. But due to the trauma and demons I had in my mind, I screwed that relationship up… But that’s a whole different blog that I’m writing.

Training my mind to do something I’m not great at isn’t the easiest thing in the world. But it’s something we all face in life. There’s gonna be times where no one is around to help, I’m in that position now, and you’re on your own. Yeah, you can tell yourself “YOU GOT THIS” but do you really? Little things like grocery shopping become frustrating and stressful. I miss the days when I handed my wife money and she took care of it. Shit, I ran out of toothpaste and toilet paper a while back. We as men, rely on women to do little things like that and never really see or even show appreciation. It might be something small, and we think of nothing about it. But it will hit like a ton of bricks when you have to do it all alone. You can’t teach an old dog new tricks? Leave him alone and see if he sends for himself. I thought about giving up lately, but the good Lord isn’t thru with me. Either he has something in store for me, or playing a cruel joke. We shall see……